it gives me thrill to wind you up
Miezamarsha
Diploma in Mass Communication
I love Myself. I dont smoke , drink & club.
18 years of living . 11th July. pampered. Sturborn & Sensitive .
Always Love Italian Food:)Mixed blood. Easily got irritated. Easy going.
Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Strong sense of sympathy.
Im'a shopaholic. Dislike crowded places.
i am so not bitter
about you eg. I am cool. I sing great songs. I am kate nash.
Thursday, August 7, 2008
[ 8:43 PM ]
Hiding . Hiding & hiding . thats what i;ve been doing all this while . As long as i can cope , im gonna keep this to myself . & i'll nvr let anione gets to see my sorrowness. Cus there's no point if i shared my feeling to anybodie .. Im gonna state here and end here. Cus afterall here is the only way i can stress out in details . Memories keeep on haunting me ..Everynow & then the memory of you marks everything i do .
Let me recap on what happened yesterday night.. I've made a decision, " to move on" and wl keep on sarcrificing . so i decided to delete all our photos together. while scrolling under Babylove folder . i get teary , bt then i keep on smiling cus every pics mcm gile2 pose and there's story behind it. so it leads to happy moment*memory*. suprisingly, im nt weeping . i whispered to myself " yes , mieza totally fine right nw? yeaa." reason kenape i said mcm gtu . cus Each Day i will pray " if he's nt meant for me . then let me forget him" & since im nt weeping at that point of time .. i thought it was a good sign. so switch off the comp and take a nap. & i dreamt, he knocked on my door and gave me his green long sleeve T's [remember abt my old post where he wrote sweet msg; shaikh sayang kan mieza unt0k selame-lamenyer & sign on the tees] continue, after giving the Shirt . i remembered he said "Jgn skali2 buang ni tees .! simpan baju ni walau mcm mane pon. i akan sentiase dkt ngn u ."*kiss on the forehead* & i tersadar frm sleep . and like again i cried while sleeping . the moment i tersadar , the bantal mcm basah2 . so i melamun kejap .i knw why im weeping in my sleep . maybe cus i get to see his face .i miss him so much. afterwards tawt of klua kan that green tee's frm my woredrobe. then i smile lagi .. beh i took a smell and maseh bau perfume die , so amazingly. & somehow i felt he;s so near cus of his perfume scent . then it remind me of my old perfume, isis women which i stop usin. that is his favourite smell . so i took out frm my woredrobe and letak sebelah . i stand beside my bed . and look at the two things . somehow .. i cant be so in fantasy .so decided to throw th green long sleeve tees jugak! muktamat . so i ramas2 the baju. and bile i open my bedroom door . aru teringt dah kul 12 mlm . sape nk klua kan ? cus i tawt of throwing kat bin luarnye. Den i was like"eeee slenger nye!" at that point of time i felt pilu sngt ! idk what to do . so i just layed down on my bed with the tee;s and isis women perfume . & somehow , flashback took place . i remembered the first time when we met . dgn tk sengaje our baju samer colour . & we get so mesre just that we met almost every single day! . & so sudden we stop contacting due to someone else that enter in my life and he get the wrong msg. so he back off . bt after 2 months . he started to misscall and send text .and gt so so . much. much.much closer than b4. Flashing back all those days . in details i can still remember what he said . & the route we took to reach our place . *we took the longest way to my place cus he said " tak puas la jmpe u."+ i can still remember when he actually said
Let me recap on what happened yesterday night.. I've made a decision, " to move on" and wl keep on sarcrificing . so i decided to delete all our photos together. while scrolling under Babylove folder . i get teary , bt then i keep on smiling cus every pics mcm gile2 pose and there's story behind it. so it leads to happy moment*memory*. suprisingly, im nt weeping . i whispered to myself " yes , mieza totally fine right nw? yeaa." reason kenape i said mcm gtu . cus Each Day i will pray " if he's nt meant for me . then let me forget him" & since im nt weeping at that point of time .. i thought it was a good sign. so switch off the comp and take a nap. & i dreamt, he knocked on my door and gave me his green long sleeve T's [remember abt my old post where he wrote sweet msg; shaikh sayang kan mieza unt0k selame-lamenyer & sign on the tees] continue, after giving the Shirt . i remembered he said "Jgn skali2 buang ni tees .! simpan baju ni walau mcm mane pon. i akan sentiase dkt ngn u ."*kiss on the forehead* & i tersadar frm sleep . and like again i cried while sleeping . the moment i tersadar , the bantal mcm basah2 . so i melamun kejap .i knw why im weeping in my sleep . maybe cus i get to see his face .i miss him so much. afterwards tawt of klua kan that green tee's frm my woredrobe. then i smile lagi .. beh i took a smell and maseh bau perfume die , so amazingly. & somehow i felt he;s so near cus of his perfume scent . then it remind me of my old perfume, isis women which i stop usin. that is his favourite smell . so i took out frm my woredrobe and letak sebelah . i stand beside my bed . and look at the two things . somehow .. i cant be so in fantasy .so decided to throw th green long sleeve tees jugak! muktamat . so i ramas2 the baju. and bile i open my bedroom door . aru teringt dah kul 12 mlm . sape nk klua kan ? cus i tawt of throwing kat bin luarnye. Den i was like"eeee slenger nye!" at that point of time i felt pilu sngt ! idk what to do . so i just layed down on my bed with the tee;s and isis women perfume . & somehow , flashback took place . i remembered the first time when we met . dgn tk sengaje our baju samer colour . & we get so mesre just that we met almost every single day! . & so sudden we stop contacting due to someone else that enter in my life and he get the wrong msg. so he back off . bt after 2 months . he started to misscall and send text .and gt so so . much. much.much closer than b4. Flashing back all those days . in details i can still remember what he said . & the route we took to reach our place . *we took the longest way to my place cus he said " tak puas la jmpe u."+ i can still remember when he actually said
him: u nak air .??
me: nak .uh semestinyer
him: uh'uh eh u tak minum air dari tadi .
me: beh u tak kasi minum coke
him: u bat0k kan !
me: eleh . dgr2 u bat0k tak minum coke .
him: dah. dah . i beli kan air green tea kay !
me" kay . katne?
him: kat kedai tu uh
me: nak .uh semestinyer
him: uh'uh eh u tak minum air dari tadi .
me: beh u tak kasi minum coke
him: u bat0k kan !
me: eleh . dgr2 u bat0k tak minum coke .
him: dah. dah . i beli kan air green tea kay !
me" kay . katne?
him: kat kedai tu uh
me" haha
him:asl . kesian kan .. tngah broke . tkpe la u .same2 susah . same2 senang .
"that part . finally i poured . & it just wont stop .. i watch cartoo0n! just to cheer me up . at 2 am when back to sleep cus dah terlampau sleepy . & this morning , when i woke up , receive a misscall frm his brother, 5 misscall . & he said danish miss me till he cried the whole night cus he wanna talk w me bt tak dpt. ahhh mcm tk percaye . so i talked to danish for awhile . oh that cute todler .i miss him . & one thing . since he's a kid . he keep on mentioning his pakcik name" aswad mane?" i was like ." tak tau . kat umah die la " haiyerr . -____-''''' check email dkt skul . skali dpt email frm hyrul . mentioning his name for like 16 times and below stated , last long aye " alamak . binget kejap ! we're nt together animore .shaikh tk blg ke ?! . he's close to you pe ...=/
Move on .. half way in sch . i was totally stress up . btw i was posted under accounting department . bagus uh . haiyerr. tak suke la kire duit .im scared la kalau misplace ke ..?? haiyer . btw since im nt in the mood to entertain anibody . i tried to focus on bpf . and finally aku dah fhm .. =D Should say today . my mood spoiled . even w radia also i gt binget . sape tak binget
"that part . finally i poured . & it just wont stop .. i watch cartoo0n! just to cheer me up . at 2 am when back to sleep cus dah terlampau sleepy . & this morning , when i woke up , receive a misscall frm his brother, 5 misscall . & he said danish miss me till he cried the whole night cus he wanna talk w me bt tak dpt. ahhh mcm tk percaye . so i talked to danish for awhile . oh that cute todler .i miss him . & one thing . since he's a kid . he keep on mentioning his pakcik name" aswad mane?" i was like ." tak tau . kat umah die la " haiyerr . -____-''''' check email dkt skul . skali dpt email frm hyrul . mentioning his name for like 16 times and below stated , last long aye " alamak . binget kejap ! we're nt together animore .shaikh tk blg ke ?! . he's close to you pe ...=/
Move on .. half way in sch . i was totally stress up . btw i was posted under accounting department . bagus uh . haiyerr. tak suke la kire duit .im scared la kalau misplace ke ..?? haiyer . btw since im nt in the mood to entertain anibody . i tried to focus on bpf . and finally aku dah fhm .. =D Should say today . my mood spoiled . even w radia also i gt binget . sape tak binget
ain: eh tak fhm uh .. ape die bobal ??
mieza: ain . i dah fhm .. kay its like this .. erm . per annum kan . u time with the amount..
radia:*interupt* aah beh the answer to u minus uh *den she snyap*
mieza: ain . i dah fhm .. kay its like this .. erm . per annum kan . u time with the amount..
radia:*interupt* aah beh the answer to u minus uh *den she snyap*
mieza: *so i continued* yp .. u dah get the answer . u total pastu u round off . takmu ade..
radia : mcm .. cents2 dulu ..
[den i snyp tau . nk see if she wanna explain kasi habez tak , bt die stop halfway . so testing kejap try to continue .]
mieza: ur percent ikot year . if document to letak 2 year .. 6 percent .
radia : mcm .. cents2 dulu ..
[den i snyp tau . nk see if she wanna explain kasi habez tak , bt die stop halfway . so testing kejap try to continue .]
mieza: ur percent ikot year . if document to letak 2 year .. 6 percent .
AND SHE INTERUPT LAGI HALFWAY SHE STOP
so dah binget kan . mieza mengam0k . haha . " u time 6 uh . bt ade ...* [she interupt lagik!]
mieza: hurgh... bobal uh . nak explain sngt kan .
den she senyap and look at me.. punye binget . so i talked to myself
" explain uh, asal diam radia?"
den she turned facing the board .! beh min dgr dah tersengeh2 . den he said " lek uh mieza , mengamok plak " beh dah sensitive2 gini kuat minum air plak aku . haha .. i finish up Min;s apple tea and still complain tht im in thirst . haha . alright i end here ayts . nitesssss.
so dah binget kan . mieza mengam0k . haha . " u time 6 uh . bt ade ...* [she interupt lagik!]
mieza: hurgh... bobal uh . nak explain sngt kan .
den she senyap and look at me.. punye binget . so i talked to myself
" explain uh, asal diam radia?"
den she turned facing the board .! beh min dgr dah tersengeh2 . den he said " lek uh mieza , mengamok plak " beh dah sensitive2 gini kuat minum air plak aku . haha .. i finish up Min;s apple tea and still complain tht im in thirst . haha . alright i end here ayts . nitesssss.
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